Lessons Learned

I'm sorry it has been nearly two weeks since I've posted. I quite literally needed to take a breath and process before I could share all that has changed in just these two weeks. In response to last post I received a phone call from some one involved with the situation. Due to the sensitivity of the events involved I'm being intentionally vague. However, she told me that there was a different reason for the granddaughter to be removed. Once that my mother knew of when blaming me for the situation and that I should put my mind at ease.

Also, a big emotional change for me was getting the court papers to my molestation case. Reading them was like reading a story of some one else. The biggest shock came when I read my mother's testimony against me. I guess that was really all I needed to hear to realize I need a break. I love my mother and I honor her for bringing me into the world, but her actions have hurt me and for me to move on with my life and continue with being the best mother I can be, I need a break.

On other news, Loralei is going to be the cutest tutu-ed devil for Halloween! We had a Halloween photo shoot and she is adorable. I will have those pics posted as soon as I can. I love Halloween and I love taking Halloween photos. Loralei has also pretty much successfully stopped breastfeeding. (I tried weaning, but I hate that word.) It has been pretty much painless and tearless and for that I'm so grateful. I have adored breastfeeding my child and I hope that all who can will nurse their children as well. The emotional bonding and physical benefits make it something I am very passionate about. I think that would be my second top dream job, possibly my first; helping women to have that amazing experience of nursing.

Life is good and I am so grateful for my blessings. Here are my joys.