Strength to Light Up the Dark

Light Up the Dark

As I was reading my scriptures this morning I decided to read talks on strength. This week has been tough for me. I found out that my credit is trashed because my name is still on my ex-husband's home and he has hit some financial difficulties. Also I found out that its about 95% likely that I am going to have to move. Not out of Utah, no Ryan wouldn't allow that, but out of the home that we had hope to purchase, because my credit is not in any shape to buy a home. So, I was researching strength because I am going to need strength and wisdom to make the correct decisions with my husband about where we should go. I came across this talk by Elder Richard Scott. I love him he is truly one of my favorite apostles and is like the grandfather that I hope my husband will be :) So he posed these four questions for deep thought and I thought as my blog post that I would attempt to answer them. I figure no one reads this anyway so...why not?

What are some of the most fundamental priorities of your life?

To have a family where love is abundant. To be loved by others and to be respected by them. To raise righteous children who will love their parents and the Lord. To be educated and to have a closer walk with the Lord. To have a meaningful life that is more than fluff.

What challenges do you face in realizing your dreams and aspirations?

The resources to begin a family. My awkwardness around others, a lot of the times my social insecurities prevent people from noticing who I truly am. The rest of my challenges are ones that I have made myself, no one can determine if I live up to my potential, only I can make the choice to do that.

What are some of the obstacles that impede your progress?

My selfishness and my laziness. My constant desire for things to be easy as well as my huge penchant for procrastination. Also my judgemental and controlling nature, I am a blue personality all the way. I need to control my temper and take things one day at a time. I need to concentrate less on things of no importance and devote my time, energy, and resources to things that will benefit me now as well as in the future. I need to become a more caring and loving individual that listens more and talks less. That puts others before herself and is not jealous of the supposed "ease" that others experience.

What motivates you to overcome temptation and live righteously so that the Lord can guide and strengthen you?

My husband and future family. My desire to be a little less of an "unprofitable servant." My innate knowledge that I can be better. And most of the love that the Savior has for me, his sacrifice so complete. And not only his infinite atonement but the magnificent blessings that I have had here on this Earth, the personal purgatories that He has lifted me out of, His all encompassing grace.

I really enjoyed this exercise. It helped me to realize some important things about myself. Life is never simple. We often want to vilify the ones who wrong us, but if we look at the situation from a more righteous perspective we can always empathize. Oh wow I have learned this. If you would like the full details, anyone just ask through a comment and I will let you know. Thanks for reading!